Saturday, December 27, 2008
I think i have been in a very bad mood recently. I didnt want that either but i just cant really cheer myself up...
I have been talking to my mum in a very harsh tone today, and after i hung up the phone, my heart just broke. When i cooled myself down, she had already hang up and i know she is rather sad though.
She will be coming here with my sis the day after tomorrow, so i will sure compensate this by treating her better, i dunt wan to leave any regrets.
One of the thing that made me really angry is that my brother is gonna bring that bitch here too, she is someone that my whole family hated her to the core, without saying, i hate her the most i suppose!!And i think its really unfair that you asked me for cash when u were here, and you didnt even manage to buy a thing for me but on the other hand u did buy so many freaking things for her, sometimes i really wonder if i can get back the brother who used to treat me good in the past, and i miss his ex-gf who treated me so good. I love her 1000000000000 times more than this freaking bitch!!
Dad, you did called me on christmas night, you talked to me in such a happy tone, but deep down i didnt even know that your business is encountering some problem until second sis told me about that... Y didn u want to lie to me?? I just want to know the truth, i know u dun wan me to feel sad and worry about you. I hope im not really a big burden to you now though i really wish you would allow me to go to western country.
I realise the feeling of going to work and getting to know that you yourself is earning some money is great, rather than having to ask money from family always. I really want to go back to the baby me so much, i really really want to...
a post filling with tears...
it ended @ 10:50 PM
love was found in Rome; in 1957
